Interlude

I feel so numb and over-whelmed at the same time. I hate to pretend that we are okay but I can't bear the reality that we have. All so sudden. I can't grasp the reality, all of this. The fake smile that your mom made every morning, push herself to be strong. The fake conversation that your dad tries just to make sure we are okay but deep down we all knew the reality, we are not okay. At all. Now as usual, my mom put 100 times effort than before. Hah even all of this not even little bit of her fault. How can a man like you, our role model, our first love just prove to us that guys out there cannot be trusted. How can I trust guy out there even someone I look up very much just showed me the real 'love'. Love is so over-rated. Look at the reality. People only see love as honey and sweet but the reality it can be poison. How love can change someone, can kill someone inside.